Off Message

I’ve always been a miserable, solitary fucker, I think. My first impulse on being asked to go anywhere or do anything is to decline. Even if I do agree, you can guarantee that as the appointment – whatever it may be – draws closer, my thoughts will invariably turn to ways of getting out of it, or, as a last resort, leaving it to the last minute and then just not turning up. I was gonna say the problem’s got worse as I’ve got older, but I don’t think it has. I’ve always been like this.

What it is, I think, when you drill right down to the core of the problem, is this:

I don’t… really… like anyone.

I added the ‘Scrabble’ application on Facebook, and now three friends have started games with me. Not only do I not really have the time to play them, I also don’t seem to have the vocabulary or braincells anymore. Guh.